Hello Darkness once again,
Reminding me of how alone I’ve been,
Reminding me of how I hate my life,
Reminding me I’ll always feel your knife,
As you manage to choke me with the scars of my own pain,
Drowning in frigid sorrow – how the fuck did you win again?
Over and over, I walk in black
Get lost in mazes, I’m losing track
Is this my mind or your creation
Is there a difference – I pace the pavement
I cannot tell if I’m in the world or whole,
My mind so tortured sometimes I lose my soul,
I think one moment that I have you beat,
I dance with joy and sound the horns at your retreat,
But then you’re back, a fog trickling, seeping, creeping
And I’m unconscious again, capable only of weeping.
How long can I fight, beat at Hope’s door?
How can I know if I’m really me any more?
Can someone please show me the way –
Or at least tell me if this evil’s come to stay?
In the neon lights I wail,
But never seen, Hell prevails,
Bruised and bleeding, my limbs no use,
Heart pumps, lungs inflate, both my noose,
They tell me someday I’ll ride this out,
Dreams of death they fill my mouth.
And though I sing and bow and pray,
Look for sunshine, or some other way,
The signs around me all point to no
All paths to darkness seem to flow,
I hear a whisper
It was the Sound of Silence.
*Apologies to Paul Simon for manipulating his song.